Dear Crossfit ...

Dear Crossfit, I get that not every day (in fact most days) is going to be a PR and I am not the fastest and strongest in my class  BUT I really really want one day where I leave the box feeling accomplished and good about my workout.  I haven't felt that in a couple weeks now and its starting to hurt my feelings.  A girl needs reassurance every once and while you know??  While I feel like you are emotionally abusing me right now, I think we can still salvage the relationship.  Let's work it out on Saturday morning. xoxo Jennifer

WOD
Max Broad Jump

50 Strict pullups*
*At the top of every minute, do 10 wallball shots
12 Minute time-cap

RESULTS

jump: 72 inches

42 pull-ups (green band, first 7 pu blue band), 12# ball, boy line  

(I thought I had only gotten 38 PUs but realize I was counted down not up)

ANALYSIS

Broad jump was fun and I was very happy to get 6 feet!!  For my short little legs thats just awesome.  I have never done the broad jump in a measured capacity before ... good fun.  Of course the daddy long legs in our group were jumping two lengths of my body. SUPER impressive.

The WOD is getting in my brain and its fucking up my performance.  After the first round, every 6 or so wall ball, it would skim the wall and I would have to stop. Ridiculous and frustrating. And I had every intention of staying on that blue band as long as I could, and actually I could have gone longer but something in my brain just says stop and downgrade.  I took two one minute breaks during this WOD - thems the rules! - and almost finished in the 12 min cap.  I know we aren't supposed to compare ourselves to other athletes but it gets SO discouraging when I see people that started after me going faster than me!  I need to figure out how to channel that into motivation because right now it just pisses me off and then I get ... frustrated.  Shocker.

BTW I know I need to change my attitude and I know I have come a long way and that I am working hard and I am strong ... but sometimes I just need a WOD where I feel like I really kicked ass.  I haven't felt that way in a while and am missing it.  So for now, I think I can, I think I can, I think I can .. :)