It got into my head.

WOD

2 Rounds:
500m Row
25 Thrusters (45/35)
15 Pullups

RESULTS

12:15 or 12:51... I actually think it was 12:15 but I wrote 12:51 on the Board.  Doesn't matter either way, I didn't bring it today.

ANALYSIS

This WOD fucked with my head SO badly.  I set myself up for failure before we even started actually... as soon as I got to the box, I realized I was working out with Jenn and Mike Jones. FML - two of our fastest crossfitters. Immediately my brain went to disappointment. I didn't want to be finishing my first round when they were finishing their second.  Ego rears its head part 1.

Then we worked on sprinting row technique.  I always thought I was a good rower, but I find when I break down movements and then go back to focusing on the movement  as a whole I get overwhelmed, thinking about too many small movements and mess it all up.  Yeah, that was me on the rower today. I know better than to shoot my hips back! 

The biggest disappointment I had in myself today is that I actually started to give up. Ego - nail - coffin.  I stopped twice during the second round 500m row... like completely stopped.  I HAVE NEVER STOPPED ON A ROW.  I kept hearing the "you can't do this" in my head and no matter how hard I tried to push it out, I just couldn't.  And then I was stuck having to finish my second round with Andrew, Mike and Jen all staring at me - which was really just them cheering me on and being supportive... but in my warped head, they were staring. judging. PLAY WITH THE BABY!  I kid... but my ego was burnt today.  And burnt mostly because I know I could have done better. I could have pushed through that last row, I could have stayed on the bar for 15 pull-ups, I definitely could have finished 25 thrusters without putting the bar down.  I just didn't do it.

I do think my ego is still bruised from earlier this week... and I will get over that eventually.  Though in the spirit of full disclosure it is going to be hard to see all the new coaches in the new space. Shawn gave me great advice about tabling my "girl emotions" and I will... but this week I am still pouting. And I am positive that played into my shitty performance and attitude today. 

Ok, moving on.  Finding inspiration in one of my favorite xfit quotes: "I almost always want to look pretty, except when I'm doing CrossFit. Then I want to be badass and breathe hard and keep my vow to never cheat, never quit." ~ Melissa 'Melicious' Joulwan

And cool news... I am working out Saturday at Crossfit Verve - Matt Chan's box. I kinda hope I get to meet him :)

Sage rocked my lungs!

WOD

“Sage”
2 Rounds:
20 Pullups
20 Thrusters (135/95)
20 Burpees

RESULTS

14:26 RB, 75#

ANALYSIS
Cycled through the burpees pretty well - I was pumped about that. Also thrusters were fine for me. Got hard towards the end of the last round but not super hard - maybe I should have tried to cycle two sets of 10 to really push (I did 5 sets of four).  The pull-ups slowed me down. I haven't been on the band for a while - because I have missed pull-up WODs lately and because the last few pull-ups WODs I free-banded.  I have totally lost the ability to kip on band.  Interesting. And frustrating. I could cycle 2-3 and thats about it. Arms weren't tired, I just couldn't kip with the band.  Ok... so figuring I was only in 2x last week, I felt ok with this WOD.  Tomorrow should be fun: OHS and DUs :)

I'll pass on the row, and take 45 sumos instead.

WOD
Thruster
1-1-1-1-1-1-1
Then...
For Time:
21-15-9
Rowing (Calories)
Behind the Neck Thruster (60%)

RESULTS
100# thruster

SDHP @ 45#, BTNT 60#

7:32

ANALYSIS
I wasn't engaged with lifting or working out at all today.  Maybe its the spring weather, maybe its the exhaustion I am feeling lately.  Need to work on getting 8 hours sleep ... 100# thruster was easy, seriously. but we ran out of time so I didn't push heavier. For the WOD we had one extra person (ie. one more than we had ergs).  So I volunteered to sumo deadlift high-pull.  The SDHP was too light... and because of that I got a bit lazy on my thrusters.  Finished quickly but didn't feel taxed at all - which is the exact opposite of last week's efforts.  So that's my fault - I should have pushed heavier and/or faster.

PS. I really don't like WODs or lifting that requires multiple reps where the rest is behind the neck. I always finish feeling a slight neck tweak... uncomf.  K, enough complaining. Bring it tmrw!

Death by anything is awesome!

WODDeadlift
1-1-1-1-1-1-1
Then ...
Death by Thrusters (135/95)

RESULTS

235# deadlift; 65# WOD 10 rounds+8reps

ANALYSIS

I went into the deadlift work knowing that I wasn't going to PR today - I haven't completed a deadlift, in a WOD or max rep, since November.  Its just been timing.  My max in November was 235# and I leveled out today at 235#.  Not bad.  I could have gotten 240# up but didn't have time to try. I failed at 245#  Couldn't get past that sticky zone.  So let's see where that number goes in 45 days. I *heart* deadlifts almost as much as squats :)

I wasn't sure how to scale this WOD so went with rx'd Fran.  The first few thrusters felt weird on my right shoulder, but then got better.  Or rather, I was throwing the weight up more vs. pushing.  I was the second to last to finish, which made me happy. I wish I pushed through that last set - I could have done it, and not just saying that in post-WOD bliss...  The person that beat me was lifting 20lbs less, so I am pleased ;)

You know it's hard when the thruster is your rest!

WOD

Snatch
2-2-2-2-2-2-2-2

400m Farmer’s Carry (50lb/35lb)
Every 10m do 1 Thruster.

RESULTS

55-65-75 on out ...

25# 11:28 (I didn't look at my time, but Billie says this is where I fell out...)

ANALYSIS

I really wanted to use this snatch time to work on my form so I stayed at a comfortable 75 for 6 of the 8 lifts.  Still having problems opening my hips and getting under the bar and I am pretty sure I have moved into over-analyzing mode.  Sigh... the one thing I am confident that I do really well is stay active in the bottom of my squat - legs and shoulders. So there's that :)

Farmers Carry. So hard.  Its quite frustrating bc the muscles are working, but the hands/grip won't. I just couldn't hold on more than 1-1/2 or two rounds towards the end.  I wimped out and didn't do the burpees every time I dropped the weights - that would have added another 4mins or so to my time I think.  But its hard to opt in when things are optional - and maybe thats what divides me from the true competitors ;)